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combat_mage_sc  Title: Hi. My name is Combat and i'm an alcoholic.
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Registered: 2001-7-20 21:19:21
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What'd you do for those 2 years you wild monkey?
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MoFoEskimo  Posts: 259
Registered: 2002-6-10 04:41:59
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You do understand what the thought "I HAVE DONE SOMETHING HORRIBLY HORRIBLE WRONG, AND I CAN NEVER MAKE AMMENDS WITH MYSELF. EVER." would do to most clinically depressed people?
Oh, wait, it's not about MOST people, it's only about THE BEST people, right?
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vn_anon63xxx Title: Darwin's Revenge
Posts: 251
Registered: 2001-3-12 14:43:10
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combat_mage_sc posted:
What'd you do for those 2 years you wild monkey?
Enough
I like and respect FYC because we come from similar backgrounds. We turned our backs on that lifestyle and work every day to make it harder and harder to return to it.
Returning to my previous life would now take more energy than it takes to repent.
It's a good feeling. I almost see the light at the end of the tunnel. And, I know I can't make a u-turn and return to where I was because it's just to hard to make ommends.
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Eshvanu  Title: Using Corbomite successfully since 1987!
Posts: 66
Registered: 2001-12-31 09:14:14
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combat_mage_sc posted:
I allways pictured rock bottom as a dark alley with a needle in your arm, a dick in your mouth with your front pockets pulled inside-out.
Thats what rock bottom looks like in my minds eye. 
Well, combat, I've met folks who didn't hit their "bottom" until in such dire straights. Perhaps not as fantastic as your vision, but close to it.
In that way I was lucky, I didn't go quite that far down in life. I remember a time I lived on a box of malt-o-meal for a week. At least I had water and a stove to cook it on. I remember a time I mentioned in my initial post, where I lived for several months in someone's back yard (with permission), showered using their garden hose, and otherwise scraped along doing the best I could at the time. Saved me, really, as they helped me get the job as a janitor that led to my being able to earn my own way again, and eventually reach this point of my life.
Anon, nothing I can say to you will change your perspective. I see now that you bring what is, to me, the insanity of Catholic doctrine and dogma into this argument. I'd rather be human, and live as well as possible, than go back into that insanity, dysfunction, and hypocrisy. God doesn't need me to suffer, nor will I submit to the people in Catholicism who propose such a way of life. Fortunately, Catholicism no longer has the power to kill heretics such as I am considered to be in their eyes.
Remember, there are many paths to the top of the mountain. No one knows all the ways, and no two people take the same path.
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Rain1Dog Posts: 40
Registered: 2002-11-3 21:06:49
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vn_anon63xxx posted:
combat_mage_sc posted:
What'd you do for those 2 years you wild monkey?
Enough
I like and respect FYC because we come from similar backgrounds. We turned our backs on that lifestyle and work every day to make it harder and harder to return to it.
Returning to my previous life would now take more energy than it takes to repent.
It's a good feeling. I almost see the light at the end of the tunnel. And, I know I can't make a u-turn and return to where I was because it's just to hard to make ommends.
I would be interested in hearing of your ride through life. I enjoy reading your replies and find you to be quite humerous, whitty, challenging, and driven. I would like to know what you had to overcome and what your vice was.
I am just now getting over one of the hardest things I have faced in my life... and I feel damn good about it myself.
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combat_mage_sc Title: Hi. My name is Combat and i'm an alcoholic.
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Registered: 2001-7-20 21:19:21
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Date Posted:
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Come on, anon!! Give me something.
Were you just the typical 1980's coke head or did knock over a couple 7-11's?
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Eshvanu Title: Using Corbomite successfully since 1987!
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Registered: 2001-12-31 09:14:14
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Rain, good to hear you're getting past it. Takes courage to do so. I wish you well, man 
Nailer, my mind-set prior to abusing drugs was already self-destructive. Following that path was just natural for me at that point. I'm glad you were healthy enough to see the eventual outcome, and confident enough in yourself to walk away. I envy you that kind of stability. I hope you continue moving forward in your life.
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Rain1Dog Posts: 40
Registered: 2002-11-3 21:06:49
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Eshvanu posted:
Rain, good to hear you're getting past it. Takes courage to do so. I wish you well, man
Nailer, my mind-set prior to abusing drugs was already self-destructive. Following that path was just natural for me at that point. I'm glad you were healthy enough to see the eventual outcome, and confident enough in yourself to walk away. I envy you that kind of stability. I hope you continue moving forward in your life.
Thanks, Eshvanu.
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-Dyslexia- Title: I Was Fir3d by Mithan
Posts: 199
Registered: 2001-5-1 15:52:19
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good read, thank you. May you find the top of the mountain.
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Tazzer-HH Title: Bouncer of Reality Checks
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Registered: 2003-8-9 16:22:10
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Wowser Esh! What a life you have led so far. Thank you for sharing. 
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