As the sisters rushed through the city streets toward Vetusta Abbey, Azaeli’s mind raced. She heard the soft jingle of Lexi’s armor as she followed close behind and grew angrier with every step. Why should she let this girl bother her so? She stewed in her own anger as she stormed through the streets, almost colliding with a familiar armsman.
"Tash!" She looked up at him, his red hair glowing in the moonlight, his usually kind, soft eyes now tired and red. His gaze moved to Lexi, flashing with relief and then pain as he took her in. Apolexia looked away, her face unreadable in the darkness. Azi looked from one to the other, then sighed with resolve. This had to be dealt with now, all of it. She frowned at her sister.
“We all need to talk. Lets find a place to sit." Azi said with resolve.
"

es, sis.†Lexi nodded rather meekly, “We aren't far from the abbey. We can go there..." Tash looked from Lexi to Azi with a hint of confusion and obvious desperation, as if deciding whether he should stay or flee from this confrontation.
“No,†Azi said firmly, “Will you join us, Tash?†She gestured to the gardens of the city Church.
"Um.....†Tash looked away,
“Aye...yeah.......sure." Azaeli nodded, glad at the dim light that hid her angry flush. She forced herself calm. She was accustomed to being a diplomat and focusing on the matter at hand, but with all that was happening... She said a silent prayer for guidance and patience.
"I'm glad we ran into you, Tash.†She said as she and Lexi sat. She threw a stern look at her sister who lowered her head in return.
"Oh? ....Um..Lucky me, then.†He stood towering over them, crossing and uncrossing his arms nervously.
"Please sit, Tash. Lexi, what do you have to say for yourself?"
"Um...nay I am fine...standin’." Tash shifted his weight and cleared his throat, stealing a glance from time to time at Lexi.
"I was just... I dont know sis... it was stupid of me.. I ... just wanted to help.." Lexi kept her head low in uncharacteristic meekness.
"Very well, Tash.†Azaeli murmured, reddening further with anger, “Lexi..†She shook her head. Was her sister this oblivious to Tashtego’s feelings? Surely Tash had been searching for her non-stop since she’d disappeared, was Lexi this ignorant?!
"Where....where have ye been?" Tash managed to croak.
"I went up... to try and... save father..." Lexi frowned.
"Oh, stop!†Azaeli exploded at that, exasperated. Obviously Lexi didn’t want to touch on the other issue at hand. “If you wanted to help you wouldn't have run off! I know you, you wished us to run after you and rescue you again!†She glared. “And THEN you come back and deliberately disobey me AGAIN! You have no respect or care for the Hammerfel name!"
"B.. but sis..." Lexi looked stunned, as if Azi’s words had hit her worse than a blow.
"No, I won't listen to your excuses," Azaeli fumed. She was through curbing her anger where Lexi was concerned.
"An who saved ye from tha' bad decision?" Tash ventured softly.
"Sis did.." Lexi answered without a thought. Tash’s face fell.
"Umm..........when ye went ta Darkness Falls?" He looked at Lexi pleadingly, but still she wouldn’t acknowledge him.
"Pappa lays asleep, God only knows why or for how long!†Azaeli blessed herself, wincing at her shoulder, praying for patience. “And all I asked of you was to take up his smithing orders for ONE night! And you refused even that!"
"But I wanted to help..." Lexi frowned.
"HOW is it helping to deliberately disobey my wishes and eavesdrop?" Azi jumped to her feet, clenching her fists as Lexi winced and lowered her head at her sister's wrath.
"Its... not..." Lexi mumbled, once again giving Azaeli the answer she wanted to hear. Something she’d become a master of, Azi thought to herself. But this time, this time she was not going to let up so easily.
"

ou obviously have no trust in my judgement and no respect for me," she said calmly.
"Tha's not true sis!" Lexi cried. Azi held up a slender hand.
"I’m tired of it Lexi. Tired of your excuses." She waited for an argument, but Lexi said nothing, lowering her head in shame. Was it true shame? Or an act, as usual? Azaeli’s eyes moved to Tash, who stood looking confused and left out. How had this conversation, meant to help him, turned once more to the sisters and their own issues? Her heart panged for him. She turned to Lexi again, releasing her anger with no care for patience or kindness.
"Tired of you disappearing with no regard for anyone who cares for you. Tash has been BESIDE himself and you do not even show remorse! You haven't even properly greeted him!"
"Lo Tash..." She said quietly.
"Oh well, who am I anyways? Jes...jes someone...who...." His jaw clenched and he blinked rapidly and looked away.
“ARGH!†Azaeli threw up her hands in frustration, then blushed as a friar peered out disapprovingly at them from the side door of the Church. She lowered her voice to a hiss. “Well? What do you have to say for yourself? I am weary of the same issues over and over.." Lexi said nothing, looking down at her hands.
"Well, by tha silence, I guess I be nobody..." He turned away to hide the pain on his face.
“I’m sorry..." Lexi sniffed.
“SORRY!?" Tash cried. Azaeli moved toward him, tears filling her eyes at his pain and her own anger.
"Sorry? How many times have you uttered that word?" She demanded mercilessly.
"Too many...." Lexi whispered. Azaeli snorted.
"It means nothing to me now, coming from you." This was the game then, she would continue spouting whatever Azi wanted to hear. She’d had enough of playing. She looked at Lexi, who sat still and quiet, avoiding the eyes of the two who stood over her. "No, you aren't getting away that easily, Lexi! Sorry!? Have you any idea?! -I- am sorry!"
"I...†Lexi looked up to Azi tear-stricken. “I.... just... wanted to help..." At this, Tash turned his back on them both, clearly fighting his own emotions. This made Azaeli fume even more.
"HOW?! HOW is running off to leave me at my greatest time of need HELPING? How is running off to do God knows what and put yourself in jeopardy as well as Pappa.. HOW is that helping? Please explain this to me!"
"I... cant..."
"No, you can't! Because it was a DAMN fool idea!" She ignored the eyes of passersby, her rage growing. How could this girl, who she’d only come to know in the past two months as a sister, bring her to such fury?
"

es..." Lexi whispered.
"I hunted for ye fer days it seemed." Tash said softly, struggling for composure. It had only been a day, but Azi knew how he must have felt in his desperation. Couldn’t Lexi see how he cared for her? Was she that blind? "I slew more creatures than I thought I could jes lookin fer ye." He searched her eyes, but Lexi said nothing, frowning deeper. Azi thought Lexi would sink through the bench if she lowered her head any more.
“Well,†Azaeli persisted, “Are you going to answer him?"
"I... can't..."
"

ou can and you shall. It is the least you can do."
"An now ye show up....here...†Tash seemed to find his composure again, “an’ act is if nothin' be wron' wit' it."
“I am truly sorry Tash...†Finally she raised tear-filled eyes to look at him. “Really... I am..."
"I don' know wha' tha' means anymore....I have felt.....more than I should methinks o'er this...an' now....I...I.." Tash swallowed and turned back to look at her. A soft breeze rustled the leaves as the moon rose overhead and the three looked at each other in silence. "...I feel like I need ta walk away from it jes ta try an divorce meself o' this pain."
"

ou have plenty to learn about friendship and trust, Lexi." Azi moved to Tash’s side, resting a hand on his arm in comfort.
"...So ye have had yer freedom...I hope ye liked it...for I am free from ye now..ye don' know how much tha hurts me ta say." His hand covered Azi’s on his arm as he watched tears spill down Lexi’s cheeks. "No...I need ta leave methinks...I cannae be here...I...I..†Tash’s arm slipped from Azi’s hand. As he turned and disappeared out of the gates and into the city streets, Azi found herself in tears as well. She knew nothing could be said or done now to mend her sister’s selfishness.
"I’m weary of this..†She turned and looked down at Apolexia with cold eyes. “Weary from feeling heartless toward you. I've offered you everything I had to offer, taken you in as my sister. I've cared for you as a sister, as nobody else ever has. You've shown me no loyalty through it, and in my greatest time of need..." her voce trailed off.
"I run away...."
"..In our family's greatest time of need.. you left me.." She swallowed the lump in her throat. "After all I've offered you, after everything I've tried to do to come to your aid, Lexi.. And Tash.."
"I know... sis.." Lexi’s brown eyes looked up at her with innocence and sorrow. More games. At that moment Azaeli snapped from the stress of everything that was happening. She turned her back to Lexi and let out a sob, covering her face with her hands. How had she failed at this?
She heard Lexi rise and walk toward her, felt a hand rest gently on her shoulder.
"It'll be okay sis... father is safe... he will be fine... he's got a strong heart...." She spoke sincerely, but for Azaeli it was too late. She spun to face the young woman she’d called her sister for two months.
“How dare you try to comfort me?" Her blue eyes flashed with fire at the stunned look on Lexi’s face.
"

-you're... my sis..." She whispered. Azaeli shook her head, grasping at the anger and fury in her heart, letting her eyes go cold.
"Was." It was time, she was through.
"Was...†Lexi choked, reluctantly taking her hand from Azi’s shoulder. "But... you're... all I have..." She said sadly, but the words held no meaning for Azi. She’d succumbed to Apolexia’s sentiment too many times before.
"That," Azaeli said with what little compusre she could muster, "is something you should have considered before." It was time now to show her that words and actions hold meaning and consequence. If she had to lose her sister for it, then so be it.
"But sis... no please..." Lexi clutched at Azi’s hand, sobbing openly.
"

ou can't just LEAVE and come back.. and expect to be welcomed. Not after everything Pappa and I have done for you, and Tash! You can't just expect to keep being forgiven, Apolexia!"
"But... you're my... sis..." Lexi pleaded
"

ou've forsaken me, and Pappa, and Tash..†Azi shook her head, with each moment growing more resolved. “No, Lexi. "
“So..... be it... si- I mean... Azaeli.... I shall.... go away..." She lowered her head in defeat, but Azi saw it only as an attempt to gain pity, and she wouldn’t be fooled by old tricks any longer.
"God bless you in your travels, Apolexia.." She turned her back again, refusing the tears that pushed at her.
"Good.... bye sis.... you won't... ever see me... again... I promise... and I will keep that one..." She tested Azaeli again, waiting for any sign from her sister that everything would be alright, but Azi stood firm. “I pray... father will be fine... and you..."
"Farewell." Azi said firmly, with much difficulty.
“Yes... goodbye.....â€
Azaeli heard Lexi gasp tearfully, heard chain boots clink swiftly on the church lawn and out into the street. She brushed her bangs from her eyes and lowered herself onto the bench where Lexi had been sitting. Time seemed to stop as she let her sorrow overcome her. The lingering feeling of dread that had been blanketing her very soul deepened. A hundred thoughts raced through her mind as she sat weeping and praying for the sister she’d had and lost, and for battles to come, that she'd have to fight without her.