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Did you ever really want something......and not get it?
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Ptilk
Title: Creepy old pirate
Posts: 2,359
Registered: 2002-2-13 14:52:58
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1/1/00 12:00am
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Did you ever really want something......and not get it?
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Hasn't happened often in my life. I've been lucky. Pretty much everything I ever wanted, I got. It happened, by luck or happenstance most of the time, by hard work and effort a couple of times, but whatever way...I got it.
I've been known to mock people who rail against fate and feel dejected by life because they failed. Often I've made fun of people for failing. How the hell can you fail? Life is wide open, keep trying till you get it.....the only excuse for failure is you didn't care enough to work hard enough to win.
Well profanity. I just failed. I did my best, worked hard, did everything possible...and it wasn't enough. How the hell do you losers deal with this feeling? I wanna kill something, hell kill everything and everyone......
I never really understood hatred till now. I'm so full of hate at the moment I could ignite concrete with a glance. I'm gonna embrace evil for a bit. If I have to feel like this, everyone I meet is gonna share in it if I have my way.
Not really, I'm just sad and profanity....but I wish I was really evil. I fail at that too it seems. Damn....
/emo off.
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Varece
Posts: 1,096
Registered: 2002-1-7 21:48:11
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A little time and you will feel better.
You can tell me to shut it now.
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Ptilk
Title: Creepy old pirate
Posts: 2,359
Registered: 2002-2-13 14:52:58
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Sorry Foxy. Thought I got rid of all the profanity before I posted. 
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-Foxy-
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Posts: 6,565
Registered: 2002-5-29 21:46:17
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sometimes you just gotta vent 
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Gaevren
Title: Wat do?
Posts: 1,181
Registered: 2004-9-15 09:29:36
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Did you ever really want something......and not get it?
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I remember one instance vividly, trying out for a performance/talent show. I didn't make the cut. When I asked why (I wanted honest feedback on where I needed to improve vocally or whatever, and I told them that was why I wanted to know) they told me straight up,
"Oh no, there was nothing wrong with your tryout. You were fantastic! But we figured with a voice like yours, you get into/win stuff all the time and we wanted to give other people a chance to perform too."
The thing was, I never had gotten a chance to even try out for something before due to family situations. This was it. And I wanted to do it sooooo badly. I still resent that to this day.
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Itab
Title: I
Posts: 1,020
Registered: 2006-2-20 07:38:15
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Yes, happiness lol
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Ptilk
Title: Creepy old pirate
Posts: 2,359
Registered: 2002-2-13 14:52:58
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I've never really given a god damn about most women in my life. I mean, I like them and all, but they all tend to blur together and don't really stand out as individuals. I loved my ex-wife more than I can ever express in words. I loved everything about her, even the stuff I hated, I loved.....
Been a loooong time since I met someone I really gave a damn about. I did just that recently. Floored me, I was in love 3 seconds after I started talking to her. I knew she really didn't like me, everything I am offended her, but I didn't care, I knew all I had to do was let her get to know me and she would change her mind...
Didn't happen. She got to know me, and started hating me for stuff I am instead of stuff she imagined I am....damn, that sucks.
20 years from now she will be in a place where she can appreciate what I am...but I'll be dead so it's no comfort to me to think about that. Don't ever get old. It sucks and you can't think "oh well, some day" when "some day" is long after you will have died.....god damnit.
I''ll be fine by Wednesday...till then, I'll be posting emo crap and feeling sorry for myself.
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AkagiyamaMissile
Title: Lord of the Lactose Intolerant
Posts: 3,975
Registered: 2003-4-22 07:39:44
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Aww... c'mere you!
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-Accident-
Title: Waiting to happen
Posts: 660
Registered: 2000-8-24 09:49:04
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Ptilk posted:
I've never really given a god damn about most women in my life. I mean, I like them and all, but they all tend to blur together and don't really stand out as individuals. I loved my ex-wife more than I can ever express in words. I loved everything about her, even the stuff I hated, I loved.....
Been a loooong time since I met someone I really gave a damn about. I did just that recently. Floored me, I was in love 3 seconds after I started talking to her. I knew she really didn't like me, everything I am offended her, but I didn't care, I knew all I had to do was let her get to know me and she would change her mind...
Didn't happen. She got to know me, and started hating me for stuff I am instead of stuff she imagined I am....damn, that sucks.
20 years from now she will be in a place where she can appreciate what I am...but I'll be dead so it's no comfort to me to think about that. Don't ever get old. It sucks and you can't think "oh well, some day" when "some day" is long after you will have died.....god damnit.
I''ll be fine by Wednesday...till then, I'll be posting emo crap and feeling sorry for myself.
ugh, Ptilk, that sucks.  it just sounds so unfair.
try to keep busy and put it behind you...you know it will take some time. I'm sorry.
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.-Vega-.
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Registered: 2005-6-20 13:31:05
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I was living in a city where I wanted to go to school, but the university didn't accept me.
I also really really wanted this girl, but she wasn't interested in me.
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