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Hsi_Kang
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Registered: 2003-11-8 00:08:30
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Are you self-motivated?
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Have to be as a modern day sharecropper!
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Abaddon_Ambrosius
Title: Retired Theurgist TL
Posts: 1,674
Registered: 2001-12-21 09:51:39
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Altra_Shadowstalker posted:
Are you self-motivated?
I don't know. Should I be?
Who can I ask for help with that?
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Ptilk
Title: Creepy old pirate
Posts: 2,359
Registered: 2002-2-13 14:52:58
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I used to be a "go getter" who outworked everyone on the planet. I put in the hours, the long, boring, dreadful hours....and I got compensated for doing so. I made cash. Quite a bit of it. I bought all the cool toys, felt god damn good. King of the world and shit.....
I also got 3 heart attacks, divorced, and credit card bills to choke a horse. Used to have trouble sleeping, always worried I had forgotten to do something, left some issue unfulfilled, didn't do something that needed to be done....worry, fret, stress, obsess....rinse wash repeat.
Gave that crap up in a minor explosion of ego bursting enlightenment. No one cares what I wear, what I drive, what my house looks like, how hot my woman is, how much I'm worth. They just don't. No matter how much crap I buy or possess...I'm still the same asshole I was back when I didn't have shit.
I define my possessions, they don't define me. I might make some chick think that a Rolex is stupid by wearing one, but I'm never going to convince some chick that I'm cool because I have one. I'm a subractor of coolness, not an adder.
I can't live my life trying to prove to a bunch of stupid kids I went to high school with 35 years ago and haven't seen since..that I really am cool. Who the fuck cares what they would think of me now? I'm never going to go back in time and make them love me.
People in my life now love me. They really do. I have the best friends, really awesome people who I value for who they are. It's an amazingly freeing feeling to know that people you respect also respect you. I don't need to do anything to win them over, they like me for who I am.
Even though I am a creepy, old, foul mouthed curmudgeon. I'm all in. No excuses, no exit plans, I'm me. Take it or leave it.
So anyway...back to the question. Am I self motivated? Sure, if by motivated you mean absolutely happy to be who I am and taking every advantage and opportunity to be more like me every day. I don't think I'm great, but I'm the greatest me who ever lived.
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Altra_Shadowstalker posted:
I have a hard time getting stuff done. I can probably blame a lot of my laziness on my insomnia/sleep schedule, but I have trouble just starting things that I know I should do. Things I should want to do.
I'm starting to think I'm depressed and just don't know it. I think I'm addicted to masturbatory acts such as checking the Outpost to see if anyone has responded to my posts or checking the internet to see if there's a video I can masturbate to. Some weekends, I go out on a Friday night with friends and then pretend I have a hangover so I can stay in the rest of my weekend. If I'm in a relationship, I do this with the girl and feel just as useless at the end of the weekend. (and then of course I blame her for us being boring because she hasn't motivated me to do anything interesting)
A very large part of me really enjoys my life, just existing and not having to worry much about anything. I can shrug just about anything off -- I'm the type of guy who realizes he dropped $20 somewhere and turns the experience into a positive one: 'I'm really glad to have enough money that losing it won't impact me at all.' But there's a small part of me way back in my brain shrilly screaming, "DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE! WAKE UP AND GO LIVE! YOU'RE GOING TO DIE HAVING ACCOMPLISHED NOTHING!"
They say you get out of life what you put into it. I haven't really put anything into it but I feel like I have everything already. I guess it's tough to add to your workload when there's no consequence either way and you're the only one you answer to. I'm thinking the answer to this is to grow that shrill voice in such a way that it can co-exist with the tranquil, life-loving, can't-get-me-down rest of me. That, and swap smoking pot with taking Adderall.
I really think you should see a doctor, be very frank about all your personal troubles, and just go from there........... might be the best decision you have ever made.
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IMHO
Title: Official Outpost Greeter
Posts: 2,287
Registered: 2001-11-1 03:55:02
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Orwyn_Blackheart posted:
I really think you should see a doctor, be very frank about all your personal troubles, and just go from there........... might be the best decision you have ever made.
This.
Sounds like depression.
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Ptilk
Title: Creepy old pirate
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Registered: 2002-2-13 14:52:58
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From your initial post I can tell a couple of things.
You are human
You are normal
If you really feel upset that you aren't "doing anything"...take a trip. Go see how people live in areas of the world that aren't just like yours.
You will come home and be thankful for stuff you always took for granted. That's a plus.
It's not like anyone, anywhere, gives a damn what you do. Might as well do whatever the hell you feel like. Eh?
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IMHO
Title: Official Outpost Greeter
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If he's suffering from depression that won't help. Exercise and a good therapist will do the trick.
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He's [Manegarm] like the Fred Phelps of atheism. ~Bubbledude
many of you are in the Republican boat, aka the ship of fools. ~Modeeb
We are here on Earth to fart around. Don't let anybody tell you any different. ~Kurt Vonnegut
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Yeah, getting out of this city is always a good boost to my spirits. I took a trip last October to visit my parents in Oregon and wow did it help put things in perspective.
I don't think I'm depressed. I'm usually very happy. I just don't like the idea that I'm wasting my life, and after another unproductive weekend, I can't help but feel that way. Depression is usually when you feel sad or upset without any reason.
Still, I'm due for a Dr. visit soon anyway, maybe I'll mention something. I definitely want to get on Adderall though, at the very least, it seems to help me focus which can be motivating.
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Ptilk
Title: Creepy old pirate
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Registered: 2002-2-13 14:52:58
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I've been clinically depressed for decades.
The only thing that helps me, is seeing other people whose lives suck worse than mine ever could. I spend months after such a trip kicking the ass of capitalism....and getting laid.
If that isn't a cure, it sure as hell beats the sickenss.
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Haha
I've been to some pretty poor places when I was younger and I saw tons of poverty. I saw things that shaped and molded me to the point where I don't really care about money or the traditional idea of success. As long as theres food on the table and a roof over my head, I'm happy. Everything else has just proven to be a distraction anyway.
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