As he and Azi made their way to Ye Mug, Jashen wondered what she was up to. The swing in emotion over the possibility of trial, and its outcome, concerned him. He found them a cozy spot near the rear of the tavern and ordered an ale, taking a seat with his back to the wall, so that he could observe the door. He was taking no chances right now.
“So,†he started quietly as the drinks were brought. “Whatever did you wish to talk to me about?
Azi considered him dispassionately. Her expression reminded him of a cat considering a mouse for a moment. Then, she smiled tightly, not a pleasant expression at all. “I think you can guess,†she said with a raise of her eyebrows. “I didn’t wish to say these things in front of everyone else.â€
He considered her for a moment and shrugged as he settled back against his seat. “I have no idea.†He thought the playing into her want for information might give him some small edge here, and the way she had been acting, he wanted every edge that he could get. Too many things were going on that he wanted to find out more of. Azi was a possible source for more information that he had not yet been exposed to. He quickly reminded himself of all that had come to light this day, and some of the events. A couple of younger inflitrators, not of the League, had turned up dead. There was still no word of Tannir, other than his departure, which it seemed plenty of people knew about.
And lately, there was someone else asking around, in a fashion that Jashen found more than novel. The unthought of sources seemed to be being sought out. He wondered what time of information they provided.
Azi grinned a sly grin at him. By the Almgihty, he admired her look, and generally her poise and nature. But this was so unlike the Azi he was used to. When you fight next to someone as often as they had since she became a paladin, you get a sense of them and what they are about. It was true that the blood of battle was a bound and hard to shatter, or turn aside. As he looked at her, he thought of the motto of the League. “For any who fight with me this day, is my brother!†He pulled himself back to the present matter with a slight mental effort.
“Oh, be honest, Jashen,†Azi was saying. She peered intently at him, and he knew that she too was watching for something.
He sighed and gave her a crooked half-grin. “Then what, Azi?†he asked in as disarming a fashion as he could imagine. There was a small part of his mind that wished Crispian was there, hidden in the room to watch his back, as he had done for his twin. But such was not the course of events these past days, and Jashen suddenly felt very alone against all that was facing him.
“You stand to gain from this, don’t you?†Her tone was casual, almost as if she were discussing armor, or a new blade. “If Crispian goes to trial, surely you succeed him. His downfall would be your moment to come out from behind being the younger brother of a legend.â€
Jashen shook his head. “I don’t want it to come to that.†He could not believe that Azi was thinking on these lines. Surely there was something wrong beyond her odd behavior here.
“Then you shall be respected over him, as you have always wanted.†She continued, as if he had not spoke at all. “Won’t you?†Her eyes did not leave his, holding him fast to her. He noticed a kind of look to them that he could not place at first.
He found his anger rising at what she was insinuating. He did not wish to gain in this way, although it seemed a natural conclusion for one to draw, that he would succeed Crispian in the office of Seneschal.
He shook his head. “I would not take his Titles, Azi!†He could not keep the look of offense coming to his face, for he felt very slighted by her words. She know him to be one who did not seek honors, even to the point of not leading hunts, but always letting them be at the discretion of Achou.
She smirked, a cold expression on her face. “You say that now,†she said as her eyes flicked over him. “But would you truly deny them, if they were offered freely?†Her voice was silken, smooth, but odd. More like Mirashta’s tenor and pace than Azi’s.
“YES!†he snapped, then lowered his voice as he looked about. He did not want to draw attention to them here. It had become harder to be unobserved in the city. “I would refuse.†He almost glared at her, but kept his gaze soft just short of it. “The Azi I knew and hunted with would not ask such!†He could not keep the pain from his voice, so great was his hurt at what she put forward in this fashion. To take Crispian’s titles was wrong, although he would serve if pressed.
Azi thought for a moment as she sipped at her wine. A mixed look of unease and satisfaction came over her face as the cool red wine swirled on her tongue. A young vintage, she thought, and not as sweet as Elven wine. Corrath kept a better wine, she thought smugly.
“Jashen,†she started mildly, “have you proof that it was not you,†she inclined her head, “who murdered those men? She looked at her goblet as she finished. That question would sting the mercenary, she knew.
Jashen’s mouth opened in surprise for a moment, not even believing where Azi’s line of thought had just gone. How dare she ask such a thing! He was no infiltrator! He could not even get out the proper response. “No, Azi,†he recoiled from her. He just could not follow. “I would not take his titles! He is my BROTHER!†His mild fell back at the idea of killing to gain.
Azi held up her slender hand. “You are not listening to me, friend.†Again, the wine goblet rose to her lips. She closed her eyes as she drank from it. Other wines came to mind. Reds in Hibernia, a sweet wine brought by a young man unexpectedly to her manor house.
Jashen squared himself opposite her. “Then state your case,†he said evenly, thinking of how often Crispian had done almost the same thing. Temper in check, reason the matter through, he reminded himself. Auntie Mir had always said his temper was bad, and now would not be a good time to prove her right.
Azaeli thought for a moment of what tack to take. What barb would put this young, arrogant mercenary on edge. “You have much love for your brother, do you not?†she asked, finishing the first wine.
ends, "you have much love for you brother, do you not?"
Jashen did not change expression in the least. “I do indeed. I would offer my life for his,†he said, taking a drink from his ale and hoping that such would not be needed in this instance. “Do you know such love?†he asked, knowing that they were sparring to see who would offer what. This was not Azi, he felt certain of that. Azi knew how much the twins meant to each other, perhaps as much as a non-twin could.
Azi’s face contorted for a moment. She felt D’Vena’s presence recoil at the very idea of loving someone. Azi tried to call up images of her love for Ascot, of her parents. She recalled her mother’s vialant death, Tobyas’s quiet pain that night in the cloister garden. She almost felt a moment where she could speak, and then those cruel, wicked eyes filled her brain for a moment. She shook her head, not wanting to, and the visions cleared.
“Do not distract me with questions!†she snapped. “You asked me to plead my case!†Her D’Vena awareness knew that she had to keep control. SHE had to drive the course of this.
Jashen leaned forward. “But do you?†His gray eyes bored into hers. She almost felt like D’Vena and Jashen were going to vie for control. If only she could DO something. “Would you offer your life for Ascot’s?†He held her with his eyes. “Right NOW!†he snapped, low yet harsh.
Her eyes brimmed with tears, and Azi’s own memories of her dear Ascot lying at the Academy, stone slowly consuming his flesh. And the dagger that Corroth expected her to use on him. “You know I would,†she said in a much subdued voice.
He grabbed her hand, pulling her closer to him. “Would you?†he hissed into her face. “Right now?†He could see the struggle she was having, though he knew not the nature of it.
Azi turned her head away, tears on her cheeks. “Yes!†she gasped. “I would!†The pain she felt was hers to own, and she seized on it. It was a pain D’Vena did not want to touch. She could sense that. She did not try to stem her tears. “You know I would,†she whispered, choking on the emotions as she felt the battle pitch in her mind.
Jashen did not relent. He grabbed her shoulders, turning her to face hi, “Ascot, Turning to Stone. WOULD YOU?†he near spat at her. He could tell something was going on inside her, and he hoped he was gambling correctly.
“Stop!†Azi cried, pulling herself free. “Stop!â€
Jashen let her go, but still kept his stony gaze on her. “He is my brother,†he hissed. “Would I do aught for him?†She turned away from his gaze a moment, stealing a slight bit of control. “Do you care for him, Azi?†he asked, misreading her. “Or is there else driving you?†He saw a look he could not fathom on her face for a second, and thought she would ploy him somehow. “I am Shadow Born, forget you NOT lady!†he cautioned her. He was having little trouble now seeing Azi as potential enemy, although that did cause a pain to well from deep inside of him.
Azi buried her face in her hands, pulling back from Jashen. The battle she was waging inside caused her real pain and the questions he was throwing at her was causing a different pain altogether. “Jashen, Jashen,†she gasped, “what on earth is happening?†Her sobs were bitter and racking.
Jashen leaned back. He was hating himself for doing this to Azi, but he saw no other course of action open to him. He feared that somehow that tome had compromised her. He had grown up around magic and seen the Forbidden Works of Mirashta’s teacher.
“You tell me,†he said quietly. “Who spoke to you this morn?†He watched her closely, saw her pull back for a second in shock or surprise. “WHO?†he snapped, quickly and harshly.
Azi shook, her shoulders heaving. Her voice dropped to a bare whisper. “I don’t remember,†she said quietly, raising her head to meet Jashen’s gaze, and seeing no warmth there. “I don’t remember,†she repeated. “But who else could it have been? A charred tome? Lyn Barfog?†She could not bring herself to say the name, but hoped that Jashen would for her. Her eyes closed again as she fought for a bit more control. She had managed some with Corroth, why was D’Vena so much harder to resist?
Jashen pulled her around to his side of the closure, settling her near to him. “D’Vena?†he whispered to her. He could feel her tense at the name. He controlled his own want to shudder, knowing that she was a foe to be defeated first, so that Arcalan could be focused on. The choices were grim to his liking, but he knew in his heart that the Sorceress was the one that had to be beaten first so that a focused effort could be made on the new problem, the upstart cabalist who seemed bent on tearing the League apart for her own goals.
Azi looked at him, nodding slow, and mouthed the name, “D’Vena.†Her delicate lips curled as she said it in a display of distaste. The fear in her eyes was unmistakable.
Jashen shook his head. “Think you that she is idle all this time?†he said. He found it hard to believe that one so possessed of skills as Azi could underestimate a foe, but it did seem to be the case. “Silly girl,†he snarled, not able to keep his anger in check on this note. “
Azi looked stunned, her margin of self-control suddenly shaken. Was Jashen too in her grips? “You too? NO!†she gasped, thinking the worst.
“I KNOW she is active,†he said. “Think that I have not FELT what Cris has?†he asked harshly. By the Almighty, so few seemed to grasp the type of bound between one twin and the other.
“Of course,†Azi nearly moaned, “as have I!†She seized on the moment, hoping to be able to hold it like a line thrown to a drowning man.
Jashen grabbed her wrists, turning her full to face him. “Do you think so?†he asked without any pity or understanding in his voice. “When did you cry for him last, Azi?†His eyes bored into hers unrelentingly. “WHEN?†he asked again, harshly.
Azi shook her head, trying to pull back from his grip. “What do you mean, Jashen?†she asked in pure misery.
He held her eyes, even as tears threatened his own. “I cry for him nightly,†he said quietly, but with a fierceness, “and feel his pain as no other.†His jaw muscles danced as he clenched down. “Do you, Miss Azi?†His eyes wavered from one of hers to the other in the intensity of his examination.
Azi swallowed. “I pray for him more often than that,†she said. A part of her was fixed on what he was saying, trying to keep it her focus. She struggled, feeling the will of D’Vena bent full to her now, all other distractions set aside in the far off safeness of her hold. The duel scrutiny she was under, from Jashen before her and D’Vena within, was torment to her soul. “And yes, I cry, Jashen. Yes, I do†she said.
Jashen released her wrists, moving slightly away, though he remained close. “I am sorry, Azi,†he said into the small space between them. “But on this, none can be closer to him than I.â€
D’Vena surged into the move away from proximity. It was a mistake, Azi felt, as soon as Jashen had let go of her. A slight smirk rose to her face, and she hated herself for it. “Oh yes,†she purred out. “I know that, Jashen.†D’Vena knew how close the two were, and had wanted an opening like this for some time.
Her reaction renewed his anger at the entire situation, and at Azi right now. “Do you?†he asked harshly. He wished he could tell what was going on inside her, but in that he was unskilled. “REALLY?†he asked, his voice increasing in volume unintetionally.
Azi looked around them, seeing that no others had noticed. “Lower your voice,†she said in a harsh whisper. “I do.†She asserted her answer to him.
Jashen leaned toward her again. “He is MY brother,†he reminded her curtly.
Her eyebrows rose toward her graceful hairline. “Yes? And?†she asked with a haughtiness so not Azi that Jashen almost gaped at her. She leaned away, looking at him quite imperiosly. Azi shreiked in her mind! She would never treat Jashen so, if she could control it.
He laughed, summoning up his resolve. Azi was not acting right, and regardless of what it cost him personally, he was going to push her until she cracked or started to act right. “And you,†he said very quietly, “are just a girl.†He tried to pack as much condescension as he could into every word.
She tried to look injured. That was not an expression that D’Vena herself had ever mastered and the result was rather forced. “Are you saying,†she said in a feigned injured voice, “that you are threatened by me? Little Azi?†She really was putting it on good, Jashen had to admit. But he was also unmoved.
He grinned rather coldly. “No,†he said in a dismissive tone. “With a good blade, you would be no threat at all.†He hated himself the moment the words were out of his mouth, but he held the reaction in check. It was agony to act like this toward Azi for him.
She looked at him blankly. “With a good blade, I certainly would,†she said.
Again, he leaned into her. “I did not mean you had the blade, Azi,†he said as coldly as he could. His heart was aching as he did so. A strange thought had just occurred to him. He loved her.
With a contemptuous toss of her head, she snapped, “I know. You meant that had them.â€
“Did you now?†he asked, wanting to make certain he had driven this point home. For the woman he saw before him now was not the Azi he knew, the Azi he loved. Something had been twisted and disordered in her. He felt more wretched than he ever had before.
She shrugged, something she did quite well, he noted. “You threatened me,†she said mildly, as if they were discussing weather, “and I retorted.â€
He sat back, calmly observing this new being, this Azi-Not-Azi. What great power some had, and how greatly some abused it. He smiled coldly. “You are not so dumb after all.â€
Azi lifted her cup to sip from it. “I was a wizard, or have you forgotten?†She had such a high handed look on her face. Jashen had never thought to see Azi acting arrogently. It further fed his feeling that something was dreadful wrong with her at this moment, far beyond a mere being out of sorts.
He considered her from a moment. “How could I?†He allowed his hurt and pain to come into his voice. The options for keeping Azi off balance were running low.
Her face became smug and snide. “Indeed. How could you forget?†She tried to stop herself, but the compulsion drove on. “You thought I had gone for good,†she threw the words like they were a weapon. “And that you had the full attention of your brother once again.†She paused, looking at him with an expression of pure victory. “And then, I returned.†Somehow, she filled the words with a sensuality, a haughtiness of one who has always returned, and always won.
Jashen smirked at her. “Not even Toby would come between us,†he said, allowing the name of Crispian’s sometimes lover to hang for a moment. If D’Vena was behind this, let her taste a bit of the truth of what was going on.
“So you thought!†she shot at him. “And when I had the key to end Crispian’s curse in my hands, you told me not to use it!†Her words dripped a venom of hatred that Jashen almost pulled back from. This was so not like her.
s, "So you thought! And when I had the key to end Crispian's curse in my hands, you told me not to use it!" She leaned into him, even as he pulled back slightly. She sensed that the upper hand was hers, at least for now. She would make this young mercenary accept his ignorance. “Did you think I was unaware of the risks involved? Did you,†she sneered at him, “think I was that ignorant?†The hatred she packed into the last word shook Jashen.
--to be continued—
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