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Pre-read warning: I'm eighteen years old and I really haven't experienced as much as others have yet so this might be a little short.
I was born in Portland, Maine in 1988 and raised pretty much in the city til I was 12-13 years old. I used to live in an apartment in Portland with two sisters and one brother and my mom. She really didn't have much money when she was raising us, to be honest but she did it anyways and paid the bills and everything solo! My real father (don't even really want to call him that) didn't get along with my mother and they didn't last long after I was born and the last time I talked to him was probably when I was four or five years old. He got married to some woman and I don't remember if he's still with her but I do remember they had kids. Anyways, my 'father' wasn't much a part of my life at all considering he distanced himself away from us and moved to New Hampshire. Then a few years later my mom met Chris (or we just call him "Stubbs"
and they've been together for atleast 13+ years. We keep buggin' them to get married but my mom doesn't believe in marriage.
Anyways, I loved being in the city. My friends were all next door neighbors and we would all hang out together by the bridge (over a lake
) and talk. It was seriously a great, small community we had because everyone knew everyone and we were all friends. When I was about 12 or 13 my mom and my mom's b/f (Stubbs) wanted to move out and get a house and we moved to Standish (
here's a pic of the house btw)
When I was about 12-13, I pretty much knew I was gay because I was sexually attracted to one of my friends, Chris. I'm almost certain he knew it too. It made me so sad when we moved away because I didn't get to see Chris or any of my friends for awhile. Wicked hard to adjust from moving (for the first time) and to get used to the rural area "life". I went to Bonny Eagle Middle School when I got here and it's kind of funny because people were saying "Bonny Eagle has a lot of gays in it!" from what I heard from others. Been in Standish ever since and I'm in my senior year at Bonny Eagle High School now and I just 'came out' this year. What's funny was when I told my ex-g/f (one of my best friends) and she said "I knew it!" and I know she didn't! She's full of lies! haha. It was so hard for me to come out especially since some of my friends were using a lot of homophobic language and it really didn't make me feel any better. My mom's b/f (Stubbs) was too using a lot of hateful words but once he learned my secret, he was pretty open about it (my mom too). And I fell into depression my sophomore/junior year and I seriously started to cut myself (why? I honestly don't know. This was before I 'came out'
. I went and got help for that and my friends were pretty much on my side (which helped a lot). I know people say "people with depression = RL AWs" but it didn't feel that way, I just wanted to die at that time in my life. Anyways, that part of my life is gone and I'm a pretty cheerful guy except for when you piss me off.
When I finish school, I'm really not sure what I'm doing. I was thinking about military but not so much anymore (atleast not now). I'm going to spend some cash and go traveling a little bit. That's one thing I never had the chance to do.
Class of 2007 > all. The end!
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