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Hinovae Title: Hiv - Destroyer of White Blood Cells
Posts: 32
Registered: 2003-12-2 16:31:16
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well that's a weird story.. but interesting
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Reapist  Title: Official ACF HIOFI Poster
Posts: 4,367
Registered: 2001-12-20 03:56:16
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Any kids?
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Velvet_Ice  Posts: 107
Registered: 2003-12-12 12:35:01
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Great read. Nice to meet you Esh!
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tillsb  Title: me
Posts: 463
Registered: 2003-7-24 20:45:26
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I will have to read that later when I have time as it is I skimmed the first couple paragraphs and looks to be an interesting read. Thanks Esh you are twice as old as me  |
Eshvanu Title: Using Corbomite successfully since 1987!
Posts: 66
Registered: 2001-12-31 09:14:14
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Dar 
Myn - I've thought about writing a book. Might be possible now, without repurscussions to myself or other people. It's in the back of my mind for a while yet. I do share my story and experience with other people from time-to-time. I am part of an old, strong support network for people such as myself, and keep in regular contact. I have some strength and hope to offer people who struggle and work to break free from similar problems.
Reapist - I have a son somewhere, I believe. I've neither seen nor had any contact with him. He's in his 20's now. He is, I believe, a most fortunate man for not having had me in his life, at least thus far. Until these last few years, I doubt I'd have been a good influence in a young person's life.
Do I have other children in the world? Possibly. I've not been told of any others. *shrug*
While I think I could manage to raise children successfully now, with an good partner for support, that ship has sailed. I believe it's far too late for me to do so. Having and raising a family is something I'll not experience in this life. I've accepted that consequence of the damage done to me when I was a child, and my own poor choices in lifestyle and direction since then.
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Ptilk Title: Creepy old pirate
Posts: 2,359
Registered: 2002-2-13 14:52:58
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Great read.
Scary thing is...we have a lot in common.
Best job I ever had was washing dishes and I got there by hitting what I thought at the time was "bottom". Really gave me time to figure out what the hell I was doing to myself, and even some clues as to why I was doing it.
Good luck on going back to school. It's something I really need to do as well.
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Eshvanu Title: Using Corbomite successfully since 1987!
Posts: 66
Registered: 2001-12-31 09:14:14
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Elaok posted:
Esh ... what exactly is Corbomite Maneuver ?
Just noticed this. I'm going to let you study up on that. Evolrider gives you all the information you need. There are a lot of places you can find that episode of the original Star Trek series.
If you watch that episode, you'll understand a bit better why Balok is my icon, too.
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Reapist Title: Official ACF HIOFI Poster
Posts: 4,367
Registered: 2001-12-20 03:56:16
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I like you and all, but I think you still have a problem with laying blame. I'm guessing you know that though. Still, I think it's worth pointing out just in case to help you grow. You can do it, I'm sure of that.
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pkhere: Jebus sometimes you make my arse tired.
Referring to illegal aliens as 'immigrants' is the same as referring to shoplifters as 'shoppers' - Dorvinion
I'd feel bad for Satriani but he got himself into it. - allmightybob_MLF
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Eshvanu Title: Using Corbomite successfully since 1987!
Posts: 66
Registered: 2001-12-31 09:14:14
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Reapist, I'm focusing more these days on looking at what happened, accepting it, and moving on. Blame is something I'm trying to leave behind, by forgiving others and myself for what happened. As I said, I've got a long way to go on that path, or so it seems to me. 
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FalkanG Title: Miss Karate
Posts: 17
Registered: 2002-4-11 19:27:51
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Holy crap. That's quite a story.
Very inspiring as well. You've been through a lot and survived, and I'm glad to see you've been doing better these past years.
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